pathetic...

npe aku wt entry cm2 ek?? nth.. i don't have the answer...

i'm at home rite now..deepavali holiday for 5 days.. i'm glad..at least aku klaur dr maktab..even 4 a while..what a relief... ahhhh...

since morning i was bz doin painting work... almaklumlah..my sis getting engage on 7 nov..so..touch up la mne yg xbrp nk elok 2 kn~ i'm doin it sincerely.. lg pn..sok2 aku tunang plak..they'll do the same..insyaallah klu akak n kakcik xpregnant or tgh ade baby kecik time 2..hahahahaha...nk harap aliah??? huhuhu..harapan larh~ soory ya..well...it's a reality...ngeh2..

rite now..i'm having kinda weird..down..complicated...feelin.. it's like.. i can't explain 2 myself why am i feelin this~ oh god! i really need my other half ( my 3 sweet best buddies)..weh..aku nk open table!!

seeing all those things that had totally changed..i feel like..oh god! why am i facing all this nonsense?? sumtimes..i'm blaming my self of all this..but..ble pkir2 blik... yup..i did a lot of mistakes.. tp xkn xley handle ur own problem kn?? u r mature enough..come on larhh!! i know i'm not in ur shoes..i can only talk..but still.. u have the power.. u determine what is best 4 u..for ur own sake.. u r not a kid anymore lar! wake up2~ smpai ble bru nk realize?? learn it!!learn it!! i'm not going 2 say that directly 2 u.. im not going 2 do that..why?? bcoz i know ur super duper ego won't accept what i'll say.. i'm not judging..but i know u in and out...

so..i'll just sit n pray that u'll realize that u r doin nonsense rite now..stop it larh!! u ve once stopped it?? so don't make stress as ur reason~ it's a coward attitude.. u asked for it! u'll regret n suffer of ur own action..stop it!!! u ve made me jump into a conclusion..u didn't changed with all ur heart.. rite??

so i'll just hope that u'll get a better life in times 2 come.. maybe this is just a test for u.. accept it..but don't just live with it without any effort.. work 4 it.. u'll never get it from the sky or anyone else..it's from u!!

pnjg la plak post aku kli nie..huhuhuhu...i'm done~

sorry 4 being soo emoh! hhahhaah..
c ya!!!